daily goings ons...

the last couple of days i have spent in the kitchen. i desperately need a new dishwasher! after cleaning the entire kitchen, i had to cook dinner, which now means i have to clean the kitchen again... today i got up and the kitchen was still clean, but all the dishes from yesterday needed to be put away, and the fridge needed to be cleaned out. this in turn created more dishes needing to be washed. after washing all those dishes, it was time to make dinner again, so i still have a dishwasher (used as a drying rack) full of dishes that need to be put away and now dirty dishes from making dinner tonight... wow, no wonder i am tired of being at home. so where in all that am i supposed to clean the rest of the house? i think i need a house elf :) (i'd even settle for a gnome at this point). i have been in a bit of a slump the last few days also, maybe too much down time??? i had been very busy up until sunday morning and i woke up with nothing on my calendar for the entire week... this causes me to feel like i have all the time in the world to finish stuff and therefore never finish anything even though i have way more time to finish than i normally would... (get it?) that was a lot of rambling to say that if i have deadlines, i work more efficiently. i am happy to say that i now have at least two things on my calendar for the week and am anticipating a couple more to develop over the next day or so. a great example of having plenty of time to waste: i have needed to do laundry since sunday, but since i was free i just kept telling myself i had plenty of time to do it, and now it's the middle of tuesday night and i still haven't started a single load... (haven't even sorted any of it yet) i suppose in light of all the procrastinating i am doing, and considering its getting very late now, i should head to bed and get a fresh start tomorrow with some deadlines in place. i think it's partly the accountability. if i have no deadlines, i have no accountability if something is not done. however, as a general rule, if there is a deadline, there is generally some sort of accountability attached to the deadline (otherwise, why would there be a deadline?) which means i will work more efficiently to meet the deadline and be accountable for my actions. i believe this started when i was in fourth grade. i had a teacher who did not push me to excel and i decided that if i already knew how to do the work, that i didn't have to do the homework... boy was i wrong! got a D in math that year, just for not turning in homework, but my thinking was, homework is for practice, i knew how to do it and therefore didn't need to practice. sounded good at the time, i suppose. i quickly learned a lesson in being accountable for my actions even if someone is not looking over your shoulder telling you to do something. i still have a problem with excessive amounts of homework. (and by excessive, i mean homework pertaining to stuff i already know how to do.)